Natania Barron

The Queen, the Knight, and Arthur

In Gawain, WIP, fantasy, queen of none, writing on November 24, 2009 at 9:04 pm

If you’ve followed either of my blogs, listened to my podcast, of likely talked to me for all of ten minutes, you’ve probably gathered that I have a thing for Arthuriana. My love of the genre is deep-seeded, having taken root somewhere in between watching The Sword in the Stone and receiving a book from my great aunt on the subject (I can’t seem to locate the book, but it had fabulous illustrations, including a brilliant one of Morgause holding up Mordred as a newborn amidst the rocky sea and churning waves).

But it wasn’t until college that something really clicked with me, something started reverberating in my brain, in regards to Arthuriana. I took a seminar my freshman year at UMass with Dr. Charlotte Spivack, who was a remarkable teacher with a rigorous syllabus (she’s got some impressive titles to her name, I’ve learned, too). It was in Dr. Spivack’s class that I first encountered a full treatment of the Arthurian myth, from the earliest scraps of poetry and Celtic beginnings to Marion Zimmer Bradley’s The Mists of Avalon. It’s also the first time I learned about Sir Gawain. (More on that to follow)

When I transferred to Loyola College, I was lucky enough to yet again find myself amidst impressive medievalists (and started to realize that such a title was what I wanted to be, should I be able to attain it). Dr. Kelly DeVries, a historian, taught a senior history seminar on the legends of the Middle Ages, and of course we encountered Arthur again, though from a less fictionalized slant.

By graduate school, I decided to go full on Arthuriana. I worked with Middle English manuscripts, familiar and obscure (my favorite moment being when I discovered a work that had hardly ever been written about called Outel and Rolande–which was Carolingian, but still, chivalric) and wallowed (rather miserably) in literary criticism. Most of my research pertained to Malory, however, who hated Gawain a great deal but had many fascinating things to say about Sir Palomides. I even did a few conferences. Then I had a baby, and wrote a hasty thesis about Marie de France and William Morris’s treatments of Guenevere before finally graduating and realizing, quite clearly, that I wanted to write fiction.

Two years after, with the dawn of 2009, I found myself beginning the first lines of Queen of None, where Anna Pendragon (the oldest mentioned and most often forgotten sister of Arthur) reflects on her birth, her family, and her curse. It is very much her story, told in the first person, but there are a few things that I knew I wanted to do differently right away.

First and foremost, my Carelon (rather than Camelot) is fantasy literature. It is a re-imagining without the Christianity and, more importantly, without much of the history of our world at all. Now, this might seem entirely peculiar. But for me, what’s important about Arthuriana are the stories, the characters, and the setting and attempt to shove it into a Christian nutshell always made me lose my suspension of disbelief. I loved Mists of Avalon, but the ending always irked me; and as much as I adore The One And Future King, it borders on farce too often to take seriously.

And oddly enough, removing religion and history don’t do much to change the stories at all. Yes, I have a Britain (Braetan), and an Arthur and a Merlin, Morgaine, Gawain, etc. But I’m playing a great deal with some of the older texts; for instance, Arthur marries three separate women during the course of the books (one of the oldest poems mentions three inconstant wives of Arthur, all named Gweynevere).

Now, I’m moving on to Sir Gawain’s story. Gawain is Anna’s son, and features a bit in Queen of None; but as Anna is rather self-absorbed, he only makes appearances when they aren’t arguing, which is rare. In tradition, Gawain’s character is turned about and upended constantly. He starts out as a hero, one of the earliest mentioned knights along with Cai and Bedevere. By the time Malory has his hands on him, and the whole of the Orkney clan (including Gaheris and Gareth), he basically demonizes him and turns him into a bloodthirsty murderer.

But I am drawn to that dichotomy, to that tension. And my Gawain is complicated. On the one hand, he is a formidable warrior, known for his prowess far and wide. But it comes with cost. In the current book (tentative title Knight of the Blood to indicate his connection to Arthur, etc… not sold on it, but gotta call it something) Gawain takes the story from where Anna left it, filling in the blanks regarding the knights’ campaign in the north, what he encountered there, and how he’s trying to reconcile his violent nature with his learning. Because Gawain would have been reared at court, he’s had a top-notch education at the hand of the Avillionian monks. While not religious, he claims that his power is still something given to him by some divine force simply because he cannot accept that the ability to kill so many, so quickly, so well, can be from him only.

The story concerns Gawain and some primary knights (Bors, Lionel, Gaheris, Palomides, and occasionally Lanceloch)  and King Pellinore, as well as the Questing Beast, and the Queen’s sister Hwyfar. It’s a bit more lighthearted than Queen of None, but with more philosophy in a way. Anna is a woman of action, when pushed to it; her book dealt entirely with her own revenge. Gawain’s book really is a quest, a search for his own identity among the knights, his family, and his realm. But most importantly it’s him trying to balance his blood-thirsty nature with the mind of a thinker.

Eventually, the plan is to write a series of books–which could each stand alone, if necessary–that take place over three generations, starting with Anna then moving to Gawain and his brothers, then ending after the fall of Carelon with Gaheris’s daughter (I think) returning to Orkney.

However it ends up, I’m having a blast doing research. Collecting bits and pieces of the mythology and then fashioning them together into something new; it’s thrilling. I haven’t been this excited about a project in a while, and it’s rather nice to have a mythology to lean on, rather than make mine up entirely (as with The Aldersgate and Peter of Windbourne).

A bit of an excerpt, and that’ll end the babbling. The scene takes place after the last battle of Hropnar’s War, where Gawain single-handedly saved his retinue before falling to one of the northmen’s axes. Just as he’s about to take the death blow, Palomides intercedes and Gawain is only wounded. However, in a blood fury, Gawain turns on Palomides and has to be subdued. He wakes in his tent, with Bors attending to him:

Bors was growing frustrated, I knew, his frown deepening into his beard. “Come, lad, you’ve uttered naught but five words to me. You won’t die now, but if you keep this up it’ll come swiftly to you. If that’s what you were seeking on the field, then so be it; but leave me out of it, you hear? I’ll have no such guilt on my conscience. I’ll not be the one to bear it.”

“Bors. You lout,” I said. “That was a bigger speech than you’ve ever given…” I coughed, the labor of speaking sending daggers of pain down my side and across my back. “How many cups have you had?”

A smile, like a child discovering their naming day giftm spread across his face. Bors took my slightly less mangled hand in his and kissed it. “There’s my lad.”

“Water?”

He brought it to me obediently, a perpetual grin on his face. That I know, Bors never married nor had children, and though he was not quite old enough to have been my father, still he looked to me as a son.

Bors helped me sip a bit, each drop burning as the last, and wincing I rested back down on the pillows. I knew no other knights had such luxuries; the pillows, the clean water, the fresh linens. I was the King’s nephew. And a hero. Even if I had refused it, I doubt I’d have been able to avoid it, and so I did not let it trouble me.

I expected to meet Bors’s grin again, but when I looked to him—my lips still afire from the water—he was somber.

“I find it best, Gawain, not to question the gifts of the gods,” he said, taking my hand again. “It’s a right pain when they choose, and their reasoning’s quite beyond me. But before this life is over, you must make your peace with it… one way or another.”

Updates in a Nutshell: Publishing, Reading, and Writing

In WIP, blog, publication, writing on November 23, 2009 at 4:20 am

Well, enough has been going on in the last few weeks that I thought it might be helpful to make a fancy wee bullet list for organization’s sake!

  • Now: publication. I am pleased to announce that I will be in two upcoming publications. First, in Issue #4 of Steampunk Tales, wherein you’ll be able to find my short story “The Brass Pedestal”–it’s a steampunk/weird west piece about brain-altering clockwork earwigs and one woman’s revenge for the death of her friend. I’ll let you know when it’s available, for a paltry $1.99 at the App Store (and also, I’m told, in other mobile formats).
  • Secondly in the publication realm, I received word yesterday that my short story “The Monastery of the Seven Hands” will be appearing in Jason Sizemore’s (of Apex Book Company, etc.) Dark Futures anthology. In a nutshell, the piece is about body-snatching monks in a dystopian future, living beneath a city called Abbassus. Very dark, very weird, and very fun to write. It’s one of my husband’s favorites, so he says, and I’m really excited to be included in this anthology. More details to come on that front!
  • Moving on. You’re right: I didn’t do NaNoWriMo. But that doesn’t mean I’m not working on writing, on editing, and on getting my general writing shit together. With four books neither sold nor represented, I decided that, honestly, the last thing I needed was 50K of hastily written YA when I could be spending that time, well, seeking representation and publication. Maybe that sounds snotty to put it that way, but truly I don’t mean it to be. NaNo was just at the wrong time for me this year. I am going to start drowning in novels if I keep this up.
  • On the fourth matter, connected to the third; I am, in fact, working on a project related to one of the aforementioned books, but not the one you’re thinking of likely. I actually decided to continue my Arthurian cycle with a second book, which could either stand alone or work as part of the group in sequence, starting off approximately where Queen of None ended. Having recently gone back to Queen of None it is, in my personal opinion, one of the best things I’ve written, not to mention one of my favorite settings (think: Arthur without Christianity, beef up the fantasy elements, and draw it like the Pre-Raphaelites, and you’re getting there). My pace is the usual: 1K a day. I did it all year last year, and churned out 3 books and finished a 4th. I’d say that’s a pace I’m comfortable with, and I’m stickin’ to it. Holidays nothwithstanding… (More posts on my Arthurian take and some of the history behind the project starting in December.)

In a nutty nutshell, that’s what’s going on these days…

Writing can soothe the soul…

In fantasy, queen of none, writing on November 12, 2009 at 10:18 pm

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I recently had the pleasure of reading one of Lilith Saintcrow’s amazing entries about how writing can, indeed, save our lives. Since I have been revisiting in a book that did much to soothe my own soul, I wanted to tell you a little about it.

If you follow me on Twitter, you’ll know that a little less than a year ago, my younger sister was diagnosed with cancer. Now, illness kind of runs in our family; mom’s had cancer and a series of other ailments, dad’s been fighting a mystery disease/heart disease and suffered a near-fatal staph infection the week before my wedding. And that heart surgery he had happened to coincide with my college graduation. No to mention my son’s hospital stint the first 10 days of his life…

The short of it is that my sister’s cancer diagnoses hit me really, really hard. I’m not someone who sits around and talks about my feelings. I never have been. I had one major freak out during the “is it or isn’t it” cancer talk, before we knew for sure, but I never sat down and wrote a list of all the reasons it pissed me off and why I wanted to rip off someone’s head for ever allowing my little 25-year-old sister to have cancer.

Which is not to say I didn’t deal with it, and certainly not to say I didn’t write. In the five weeks after her diagnosis, in fact, I wrote a novel: Queen of None. I literally disappeared into Anna Pendragon’s story. And at the time I thought the book had nothing in common with my own issues, with the difficulties I was confronting. It was a story I’d been wanting to tell for a long time, and the first first-person narrative I’d tackled of such a length.

Oddly enough, I had a really difficult time going back to the book after a first few rounds of edits. It’s a dark story about dark magic, and the protagonist (if you can call her that) is slippery and strange, dramatic and selfish, a curious companion on the 85K journey. Her story was a little to difficult for me to manage at the time, while my sister was going through chemotherapy. So I moved on to another project.

Recently I decided to go back through the book and do a bit of tightening. Sort of like a corset. This one was strung right, but there were still gaps. I needed to close them, to make it smoother. But in the process I learned that much of the book has to do with illness, aging, and change–the sort of change that feels irrefutable–in one’s life.

Here are a few examples from the book that were particularly revealing to me:

Anna is frequently ill in the story. Sure, much of it is her own dramatic nature, but it’s one of those threads that winds through the whole story. She never specifies exactly what’s wrong with her, either, but she’s very aware of it.

And so, for my ills and afflictions, it was not on Arthur whom I laid the blame, but on Merlin; for he had spoken my prophecy, and he moved Arthur’s hands.

Merlin has terribly crooked hands. My father has a disease called hypersensitivity vasculitis, something that causes rhumatoid arthritis, pain, hives, and more pain. As a result, his hands have been crooked for the last 25 years, to the point he can barely use them (he still plays guitar, somehow; remarkable):

His knuckles were knobbed, twisted… growing at different angles.

Family is a large, large factor in the book. Sure, it’s dysfunctional as hell, but I wanted it to be that way (not that it necessarily reflects mine!). I remember reading my first medieval Arthur stories my freshman year in college and trying to figure out how young these people must have been when they started their families, and how close the generations at Camelot. I deduced that Anna Pendragon had to be around 15 or 16 when she gave birth to Gawain for the timeline to make sense. So, at a point, Anna and her sons are barely a generation apart; she’s not yet forty and has sons in their twenties. Then she goes and has another! When Gawain informs her of his plans to marry a middling princess, she has this to say:

“Mother—this is important to me.”

“No, it isn’t,” I said, taking my hand from his and sliding it under the covers. Part of me only wanted to take his head in my hands, to stroke his red curls as I once had when he was so young, to tell him that love was to be cherished, and that with hard work and determination he and Elaine would have a long, happy life together.

But I was not that kind of mother, and I did not want to lie. I had decided, with Gawain at least, that fostering such ideas would lead him away from his true talents, and the crown. And he could not afford that.

And lastly, Anna certainly represents that emptiness that I felt during the various illnesses in my family. A sort of alienation. I felt the world crumbling around me–as she recognizes is happening at court–but she is powerless to do anything about it. Through a book, she is able to exact revenge on the world around her. It is a difficult process, full of pain and trials; she nearly loses herself in the process. But when it is over, she has quite a great deal to show for it.

As I staunched the blood with the hem of my dress, gritting my teeth against the pain, I noticed Viviane’s book had fallen to the floor.

I watched as the pages opened and rustled at me with whispers of their own.

Through blurry eyes, I picked it up, and brushed my trembling hand over the page. In an instant, the pain was gone.

And the words were clear as if they’d just been written with fresh ink.

In the end, we not only speak to books, but they can speak back to us.